Just some plans

Sometimes it helps to write down what you plan, so I will do it now. I want to read like in the old times, like always having at least one novel to read and some other stuff. I want to get more in shape with my body, find a healthy way to get back to what is good for me; want to quit on alcohol, even as I know I will never really be a guy who will totally refuse it at all costs. I want to start to write again, want to make something out of me...

Want to be someone who can look in the mirror again without shame, fear and regret... I know this sounds sad... and it is... but I can change... I will because I want to... The corner stones are allready layed down... now let's make a path to walk on to the goals I just set...

I see changes

I find my way in a cloud of rain, behind it the sun may be willing to shine on. The path is full of stones, treacherous and dangerous. But I start to feel better. I can't say why, but it's something that happens. Hope will be stronger than the old feelings and deliver a new way to live...