Well the time changes, the time rushes on. I've just received a call from her and it seems that there is a way to go on. But it depends on how I will go on, how I will change, how I will tend to do things... it depends... it's just in the flux and its more or less a decission yet to make. I'm not sure what it is, if I still love her, if it's shame that is still in me or what ever the reason is, that I'm not totally happy, not blasted away by the sheer call and that she seems to miss me in a way, even if she doesn't admit it.
I have to go a new way that's clear. I have to change and have to make better choices. Not better choices about her and me, and not questioning my feelings for her. But still I question myself, if there hasn't something changed in me regarding my feelings for her. I'm not sure. Maybe I have awaken and have realized what I want to become and what I'm now.
I'm not a bad guy, I have a heart open for the people who I really care for and in general I'm a friendly person. But I don't know really what I want, do i?
Mabye the changes that will happen, now that I have signed a contract for a new job in Munich and all the thoughts, this totally weird feelings, which I'm not ablte to pin down on anything, will find a way and make clear who I want to become.
But there is a way, there is a path... There are certain possibilities and so much room to change and anything can happen... It just is this: Let's make it happen and be sure it is to your liking!
I have to go a new way that's clear. I have to change and have to make better choices. Not better choices about her and me, and not questioning my feelings for her. But still I question myself, if there hasn't something changed in me regarding my feelings for her. I'm not sure. Maybe I have awaken and have realized what I want to become and what I'm now.
I'm not a bad guy, I have a heart open for the people who I really care for and in general I'm a friendly person. But I don't know really what I want, do i?
Mabye the changes that will happen, now that I have signed a contract for a new job in Munich and all the thoughts, this totally weird feelings, which I'm not ablte to pin down on anything, will find a way and make clear who I want to become.
But there is a way, there is a path... There are certain possibilities and so much room to change and anything can happen... It just is this: Let's make it happen and be sure it is to your liking!
